Pam's Blog (Life, Marriage & Parenting)

Some of you know how Nat and I met and I thought I will share for those who do not know.   Prelude My political awakening came in 2011 when an opposition party (not the Workers’ Party) contested in the ward I used to stay in. After GE2011, I decided to find out more about what the other alternatives parties stood for. So, I visited a few parties and got to know their members.   The First Impression I had received an email to invite me to the Workers’ Party Headquarters on 4 th June 2011. I was a little late for the session so when I came in I was ushered to be seated with a group of less than 10 people.   In this session, there were 2 facilitators and they were identified by their blue polo T-Shirt with WP logo.   After I settled in, 1 of the facilitators encouraged us to ask any questions that we may have about the party or politics in general.   Hence, I took the opportunity to ask a few questions as I needed to leave early for Father’s Day Celebr...

10th May 2020: Mendell (pronounced as "man-dell" instead of "man-dle" as in Gregor Mendel, the scientist). We decided to give our son this name as it means "comforter" in Yiddish. In Isaiah 66:13, God compares a mother's love for her child to His love for His people. The gift of a child is a comfort, blessing and testimony of God's love for us. Though I am not that old to have a child, there was a sense of doubt and unpreparedness previously. Giving thanks to God for this precious gift! 

The absence of active citizenship. I think I am brought up in a society where self-centeredness is increasingly embraced. We care a lot about how we can improve our lives individually, and think little about how we can progress as a community and society. We disconnect because we value self-development more than collective growth. Apart from family violence and abuse, in recent history, divorce is commonplace to our society because it is the easy way out. To exercise active citizenship to me is to play the role of a good human being; to see that everything we do has a consequence. Persevering in all that we do, whether it is the relationships we have, taking care of the earth, being kind to animals and other creatures we co-exist with, fighting for a good cause etc. We should all learn to be more selfless. After all, the world did not exist for just one of us.

Everyday is an important day. I wake up knowing the reason why I am here. I exist because God created me. My boss said the following on a couple of occasions, "we get a taste of dying when we sleep at night, and when we wake up, we are born again." Frequently, I asked myself, "if today is the last day of your life, would you be pleased?" More importantly, will God be pleased? As much as possible, I do the best that I can because I don't know what will happen to me the next moment. I want to give God more control over my life and let Him take the wheel and steer me in the direction He wants me to be. Because I know my life belongs to Jesus. "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 Love, Pam

Dear Day 149, There is a constant restlessness inside me worrying that I have not made today worthy. The way I live is such that today could be the last day of my life and I really want to make God proud of whatever I have done. Because my life should be about Him and not me. So many times throughout the day, I caught myself seeking validation and all I really should be doing is to be still, and know that God is with me and in control. I just need to do whatever He wants me to do and have the peace of mind. I should just remember that "to live is Christ, and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21 My life is about Him , not me. Love, Pam

Today is Resurrection Sunday, and that it why I am free.  It really has been a while since I wrote anything.  I used to write a lot more, usually in the form of a physical diary.  I would love to write more.  It provides perspective about where I am in life when I do reflections.  Though I have reflections almost every single day.  I think I would enjoy creating an audio/video diary as well since I am quite an audio person.  Back to this blogspot account, I started writing simple thoughts since 25 June 2006.  This June it will be 13 years old.  That is about the time I started my first job after my Polytechnic studies.  Time really flies.  As I revisit my first post, I remember where I was.  It was post-first love breakup.  Back then, it was the darkest time of my life and I took really long to recover from it entirely.  Let's fast forward to now.  A lot have changed and I am in a better place but with different...

Today is Hari Raya Puasa and I've decided to blog in this space again.  The last time I wrote here was less than a year ago, and it was not exactly a proper blog entry.  I doubt people who knows me personally still comes to this space as blogging seems to be a thing of the past.  In any case, writing here is another form of helping me to understand myself better over a period of time.  I enjoy writing in my diary and keeping photographs too to remind me of important events in my life.   I felt that I have matured tremendously in this half year.  I've learnt to deal with matters in a more composed manner than my younger self.  I've learnt to be more empathetic and think of a situation from multiple perspectives.  I have become more resilient as my tolerance threshold used to be lower.  The people I have met in recent years helped me to understand different things.  Moreover, as a grown-up listening to advice from my parents felt...