Showing posts from April, 2008

maybe somewhere with slower pace

Had a great time with han last evening. She made a remark that I'm more suitable to reside in a slower paced environment of which she suggested Australia. Actually I have sort of made up my mind that in about 15 years' time or earlier, I'll be off living a laid back life in New Zealand. Yeah, so I guess I hope to find a Kiwi here and marry him and have an easier access to the life I long to live. Lol. Kidding but I'm quite serious about leaving as in migrating. It's not that I can't live the life here... It's just that I wanna pursue the dream life I wanna live. In my perspective, I think it's crowded here and lack the idealised lifestyle I want. Really. Hope I don't sound too negative. I mean in my opinion, I prefer. So I guess good luck in saving $$... I've actually done my research. The cost of living is pretty high. Especially on the mortgage. However, after reading stories of emigrants, of those from Malaysia to New Zealand, I…

Better Things

I've got a feeling better things are really coming my way... Hahas.. I think I'm gonna learn something new... Not certain wad is it yet... But I'll do it... :)) I'm glad I am exhibiting determination by going for a jog every morning... It really helps to kick start my day on a good note... Like a fresh new perspective that life is gonna be great! ~ Among the things I wanna learn, I wanna learn how to play an instrument with true persereverance for once. I think I am sincere about it this time. :)) ~ Been keeping up with the monster dad news... Really hope that sinister creature will get the punishment he truly deserves!! To hell... Lol. Apologies for being foul. I just think it's unthinkable that such villains exist... ~ Oh and I think I'm lucky to have a "free" Olympus digi cam of 5.1 megapixel in my possession now... Thanks to my generous relative! Really appreciated it! However, USB port not with me yet... So photos later. ~ I think I'm ok. I just ne…

Lost touch with the world

I can't believe that there is actually someone as cruel or more than cruel in existence like that of the story of "Virgin Suicide". Read the headline news about a man in Austria who imprisoned his daughter in his basement. Not only that, he raped her and fathered 7 children with her. My goodness, it has gotta be 1 of the worst contemporary real life story I've heard.


How can a person be so evil? Really thank God that at least finally she and her children are being discovered. I hope the law do justice to this poor girl and her children.


A question came into my mind at this moment...

What would you do for Love?

- Would you lie?
- Would you betray?
- Would you kill?
- Would you die?

Would you? If doing the abovementioned helps?

Food for thought.

a mother's diet can actually determine the gender of her child

an article i just read on the net. how interesting. if you are a mummy-to-be and you are consuming higher levels of glucose, or sugar, this will encourage the growth and development of male embryos. a hearty breakfast laced with sugar could also increase the chances of conceiving a baby boy! lol. i was right about something! i always think that a female's diet could sort of determine the gender of their baby! i was talking about this with a colleague a few days ago. wooh... now i have something to back me up when people sometimes think that i think too much... jeez... i'm gonna eat a few days of bowls of cereals from now onwards! i want a male baby 1st followed by a baby girl. hehee.. i'm kinda thinking too FAR ahead yah... lol. ~ this morning i'm reminded that i need to visit my friend. i love my good friends all. just hope things will be okie. ~ then speaking of which i'm an early bird today. i woke up like at 5.36am. went for a jog. i jogged yesterday evening too. …

just some thots

my folks are back home yesterday night. i'm no longer home alone. they bought me several stuff. a pearl necklace with a cross pendent which is about 50 plus SGD. a pair of slippers for domestic use and some seashells. beautiful ones. last but not least a Jetstar bear about the size of a can of pringles. i wanna take pictures of these things but my camera died. so perhaps when i own one and am reminded i would.


my weekend is going to be unforgettable because i'm gonna be a couch potato. i cannot recall any other time other then those days when most of my friends are either having exams, working on weekends or with the army. oh and not forgetting dating. well, i feel lonely. it's alright. i do not need to be out. anyways, by next week many people will be free. thus, what i did today is extra-ordinary. i went to give tuition lesson. came back, use the net and watched canto drama dvds. half-way while surfing the net, i went to check my mobile. thinking nobody would contact me.…

exam period

You are 49.21% jealous!
For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.
601830 people have taken this test to date.
This percentage means that : You exhibit many jealous traits?
You are prone to over-react?
Although your jealousy shouldn't prove to be a real problem, you should work on controlling it more?
Things aren't often as bad as you think.

** I know imma jealous freak!!... Lol.


Mom & Dad are away on holiday in the island of Hainan. Without me!! hahas... It's okie.. I just started work not too long ago, I shan't take any leave. Well in my tiny little home now lives 4 living things. Me, my dog Happy & my pet hamsters.

I was quite proud of myself yesterday! I organised my bedroom. My bookshelf is presently well-arranged. No more dirty laundry lying around. I bathed Happy and washed my hammies cage. :)) I'm good!

What I did for the whole day besides that was watching Cantonese drama on dvd. It's really entertaining. My fave actress is in it - Myolie Wu. She's totally adorable. Hehee.. :))

Alright now, back to reality. Waiting to go for the "We will rock you" musical on Wednesday. Can't wait!!! geex..

Before I end this entry. I would like to thank jb (christine) for praying for me that day and understanding my status quo. Also not forgetting, another of my dear friend. Thanks for being available. :)) God bless all!

No Mistakes

No mistakes should be made @ work... Wake up, Pam! ~ I don't know if life seems better or worse. My comfort is that I have my family and close friends. I am very much carefree now but I know I like the feeling of being able to bug someone whenever I wish to. Basically, I have an irritating character. I like to seek attention sometimes, more so if I'm feeling down. ~ I've been having doubts about my steps ahead. Perhaps I listen to much to others. I don't know. Despite thinking I'm headstrong, I can be really indecisive. ~ I don't know what's really good for me. I just need to stop whining and get on with life. They say, "Life goes on." Well, if I could sleep for a week without waking. I imagine I would feel much better. Because it sucks to deal with my emotions on a daily basis. But really, I'm not as sad as I can possibly be. I've been really upset to the lowest point that I do the crazy things that I could think of. Which is why, whatever does…

Maybe Tomorrow

Stereophonics - Maybe Tomorrow

I've been down and
I'm wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around
With me
With me

It wastes time
And I'd rather be high
Think I'll walk me outside
And buy a rainbow smile
But be free
They're all free

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

I look around at a beautiful life
Been the upperside of down
Been the inside of out
But we breathe
We breathe

I wanna breeze and an open mind
I wanna swim in the ocean
Wanna take my time for me
All me

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home
So maybe tomorrow
I'll find my way home

** I wanna learn how to play guitar badly...
Feel that I'm not 100% focus @ work... Not good.. Well, time to concentrate. :))

Clean Slate

It is time for me to grow to become more independent and patient.
Funny how I can't get over the content of the movie, "Closer". How I feel that I can identify with the characters to different extends. I admit that I have the phobia of being alone. It is just uninviting to be Single. Because I'm addicted to someone being there for me all the time.
My parents and experiences have taught me to be independent. A person whom I used to really respect urged me to be not just physically but also emotionally and mentally independent. I thank this person in my heart.
I have some plans ahead and hope I will be moving on faster than I think I'll take. Knowing that I'm a sentimental being, it usually takes a pretty long time.

Marriage of True Minds

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no, it is an ever-fixèd mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

"Sonnet 116," 1–8

William Shakespeare

** Amazing how love described in the Renaissance period is so genuine. How about now?