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my folks are back home yesterday night. i'm no longer home alone. they bought me several stuff. a pearl necklace with a cross pendent which is about 50 plus SGD. a pair of slippers for domestic use and some seashells. beautiful ones. last but not least a Jetstar bear about the size of a can of pringles. i wanna take pictures of these things but my camera died. so perhaps when i own one and am reminded i would.

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my weekend is going to be unforgettable because i'm gonna be a couch potato. i cannot recall any other time other then those days when most of my friends are either having exams, working on weekends or with the army. oh and not forgetting dating. well, i feel lonely. it's alright. i do not need to be out. anyways, by next week many people will be free. thus, what i did today is extra-ordinary. i went to give tuition lesson. came back, use the net and watched canto drama dvds. half-way while surfing the net, i went to check my mobile. thinking nobody would contact me. however, a good friend did contact me... her dad had just died. i suddenly felt upset and said a prayer for her. i wanted to call her but i guess not as i was thinking if i were in her shoes i would not want to be talking right then. so i just sms her and send her my condolences. life... is vulnerable. is valueable. i just feel like giving my friend a hug. take care.

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was reading someone elses blog... reminded me of a phase i used to go thru'... i would go to pasir ris park on my own and cycle. i feel the loneliness and frustration the person is feeling. just that the route i take is directed with paths. why has my life turned upside down. just feel like either screaming out loud and cry or go clubbing/pubbing. or even drugging just that it's not accessible + i might be caught or forever addicted. ok whatever. i just need to get over it. i need to start something NEW. lol. life sucks.
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