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*in bliss*

Thank God I found you!*Smilez* - pam25102006


was looking through the ex - cell prom photos which were taken about 2 years ago. i had funky short hair. i was more cheerful. i was even more naive. i was younger. i was a better person. smiling and glowing.


within a short 2 years, so much have changed.
i have long hair.
i've become more pessimistic.
i'm not so naive.
i'm officially an adult.
i am a worse person.
still smiling but some say ungenuine.


only heaven knows what becomes of me 2 years from now.
if there are any prerequisites to be taken to prevent me from becoming a horrid me, i would.
colours seem to be fading from my life.
i don't see any purpose.
i know there is.
God is.
i just don't feel it anymore.
all i wanna do is to have quality time with my loved ones, learn new things, earn, spend and save currencies. not forgetting some hours to myself.


ah lian. wild.
look at these 2 adjectives.
do they describe me?
my colleagues have used that on me.
i'm a little affected.
though only a few made that comment.
and in resp…


i presume that children are accustom to the word 'auntie' for female older than them and do not look like a kid.
i've been addressed auntie so much that it doesn't bother me anymore.
it's nearing the 2nd month on my job and i'm starting to feel that i need to move on to a greener pasture...
in actuality, i still wanna hang on to this job, no matter if i am gonna pursue my studies or get a better job.
i like my work now because:
- i like children,
- it is pretty simple,
- i like the environment,
- my colleagues are fine.


indecisiveness possessed in me and i wonder which area of studies i should go into next year.
sometimes i just hate me.


feeling pretty pleasant lately.
just like any girl, i like to play princess.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems!Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

statements highlighted red and in bold seem to describe…