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Beginnings & Endings

I am not sure whether you are conscious about what you are thinking but I try to be present with my thoughts as much as I can. 

Maintaining Social Bonds

This morning I had many fleeting thoughts. When I have thoughts running through my mind, I'll think if there's anything that I can do to make that thought meaningful. Of course there are so many thoughts and it would be difficult for me to put every one of them into actions so I choose the ones that are recurring (usually these are the ones that matter). Some examples are reconciliating with former colleague whom I treasured but due to some office politics, we stopped talking. I'm glad every single time I chose to take initiative. I have managed to save several friendships and maintain relatively new ones by being authentic. I believe that if the relationship matters, the other party would respond accordingly. At the back of my head, I would imagine if I were to suddenly pass away, there would be very few words left unsaid.

On Work

I realised that I kept using the phrase, "now that I am a stay at home mom" whenever I reminisce on working. Yes, I enjoy working and to a certain extent, I enjoy torturing myself with a good amount of stress! I guess I thrive on the feeling of accomplishing tasks well and giving myself challenge by attempting to be the best (can't deny that I like competitions haa).

I sat down the other day and took out some of the notes that staff had given me during staff retreat and on my farewell. Whenever I received such notes, they moved me to tears. So when I read the notes again, I try to zoom in on the affirmation and share with the specific former colleague about my appreciation for their encouragement. I guess sometimes I need to look at things from a third person's perspective in order to articulate more sensibly rather than emotionally.  


I enjoy doing management and advocacy. 

Now that I am not reporting to any boss(es) (other than being accountable to God), I find myself trying to start some mini projects. Currently, I am trying to doodle more and see where it leads me to.


Drawing that I did on Mendell's onesie :)

Back to Exploration

Now's the season for me to explore and attempt to understand myself better. I am slowly trying to check the items off my bucket list. Studying through reading books and hopefully when I see an online course that I am keen on, I would commit myself to it. 

Love Language

My mother-in-law had a fall and she came over to stay with us for a couple of days. While I was feeding Mendell one day, she commented that I was the most patient mother she has ever seen. I feel very honoured and privileged to be given such praise by a good role model. I will continue to be a better person everyday and grow with my family.  

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