Ever since I returned to church this year, sometime in February, the Lord has been good to me, surpassing human expectations. I have decided never ever to leave His church ever again and realised how blessed I am even though I have been away from home for so long. A lot of things had happened and in all these, it showed the evidence of God in my life. As a mortal, it is so easy to forget God's grace, mercy and blessing and in order to help myself remember, I bought a physical diary to record some of God's blessings.
I believe it was Pastor Rodney who spoke about doing God's Will last year. If I wasn't wrong, he said that some people would rather not know God's Will for their lives because if they do know, they'll have to do it. The message spoke to me and it spurred me to want to seek God's Will for my life. For the past decade, on hindsight, to me it sometimes seemed that I have not used my time wisely -- I have not been serving God. I felt remorseful and talked to a close friend/sister-in-Christ. She told me that though I may felt that I have wasted time not serving the Lord, she added that now when I return to church, I am much more convicted in my faith than before. It is so true and I thanked this sister for consoling me and helping me to see things from another perspective.
I attended a wake of a colleague's mother. During the wake, the pastor gave a sermon about time and death. Death used to be a very frightening thing to me in the past before I became a believer. I feared and wondered where my parents would go if they pass on. All these questions I had no answers to in the past, and it really scared me. There are more details as to how God revealed Himself to me and life is never the same with Christ. In Him, I have hope. Recently, a close one in the family was unwell and stay a while in the hospital. During one of my visits, I saw a few visitors of a patient enquired about the patient and in a few minutes, they bursted into tears. I couldn't contain myself and cried too. I saw in front of me a preview of what would happen if my loved ones do not choose to acknowledge the author of our lives, the one and only God as their God. The sorrow, the hopelessness when I witnessed the death of a pre-believer. I am sure it pains the Lord too. I'll just like to encourage believers with this verses which the pastor shared yesterday, Psalm 90:1 "Lord, You have been our dwelling place in all generations" and Psalm 90:12 "So teach us to number our days, That we may gain a heart of wisdom". Yes, when we acknowledge and understand that our time on earth is short and limited, it is then that we take each and every second meaningfully. We'll also be more grateful because another day alive is another day to lead our lives meaningfully.
Love,
Pam
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