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Crack

At the moment just right after I feel elated, my emotion-meter just plunged downhill like a fountain of water. I want my happiness to last, however, as Oscar Wilde wrote, “Nothing ages like happiness.” How true. I can feel the crack. Like how I envision the crack to be on a piece of rock. A deep line of erosion. I can’t justify the feeling I’m feeling. What I can describe is that my heart is trying to run away from how it truly feels. I hate to have my emotions oozed out. It makes me feel terribly vulnerable.

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There’s a beautiful jellyfish floating around. The jellyfish just wants to float. You see the beauty of it and said, "You’re utmost beautiful!" because you meant it from the heart. The jellyfish took in the compliment and continues floating. Now you say goodbye with a smile but you really want to cry.
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