for ken,
i'm just touched and sad at the same time previously. that monday night i got terribly sick and lost my voice completely for a day and was still on medical leave the next day. i'm truly glad that you cared about me. :))
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tuesday i did almost nothing. just watching dvds and slumbered in my cozy and body-warmed bed. wednesday i got better but was still almost speechless. i watched canto dramas on dvds and believe it or not i watched 'Closer' for the at least 10th time. can't help feeling like jude law's character once again. (i've been putting myself repeatedly in his shoes) see the word "dammit"? after which, did some filing of my own and etc. practised on my violin for about an hour. got tired and went to bed again. had my dinner and was thinking of not eating the minced meat. however the thought of the next day (today) is my veggies day, i ate nonetheless.
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today i felt good really early in the morning. i woke up at 0445hrs. 1st thing on my mind - him. i'm really eager to hear from him. my female instincts has confirmed the negative. sigh~ walked my Happy & went to work super early. and was contemplating maybe i should just wait on. had been really occupied at work. today's sort of the busier day for me. i'm now munching on my bread and tarts that is why you see this blog entry.
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i have been reflecting a lot. i think "he's got to be cruel to be kind." okie, whatever. i just gotta tell myself to look on the bright side. oh yeah, trying to convince the sick soul.