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Dear Blog,

it has been quite some time since i last updated... i've been immensely dejected, as well as glad too... i always wish that good things would happen in the month of my birth and in December where vast amount of humans celebrate the season of LOVE; Christmas. i would say that the way things are looking for this month was alright... i thought i found the reason to be happy and then the anti-climax of the happiness factor reveal a side i did not entirely fancy... i blame myself for hoping for too much and thought i could read like-minded people but BAM... i'm wrong... oh now whatever... don't be ecstatic so easily... don't be fooled... why am i still a fool after all this time?? in the end, i'm not exactly downcast nor delighted... i just think... this time... stop being a fool and move on for real...

the company i am working for has shifted to a new location... i have a few new colleagues... i like them... and now the office seems like a home with lotsa people i can get along with... i'm good...

recently, i've been catching up on the TV drama series - BONES. enjoyed it... =) maybe sometimes i just need to be more hard and disconnected... like the main lead in the show... i feel too much for things which i shouldn't be "wasting time" on. i can't really deal with my obstinate behaviour... all i hope is for myself to minimize the distress i might cause... and pride, i just can't seem to throw it away...

somehow, i think it's time to say, "throw away your past and don't look back." persevere.

there are matters to put a smile on my face...

transformers figures... though not mine but i get to know more about it...







i like my new contact lenses...



i'm going for drums lesson next month...
for now... i just wanna tell myself... forget about everything sad about the past and let's focus on the future and the million possibilities coming my way... coz a good horse doesn't turn back when the grass behind was bitter... why bother really...

*pam*

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