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The Precedented Occurance Cycle of my MAD Behaviour

Dear Blog,

there's a hole in my heart,
which can't seem to be filled.
i demanded for an anwer;
"why?" time after time,
i know the answer yet do not know how to act.

it was uncanny of me to react the way i did.
however, it was the primal reaction i would have.
sigh, i can't leave you because truly,
i can't find someone else like you.
it's a pity if i leave,
you are so altruistic
while what am i?

i can't help but have the demented sydrome.
why can't i just be contented?
sigh, i don't know what's good for me.

~

Dear Blog,

Sometimes I really wish I can be happier. Have a positive attitude but somehow as Danny once remarked, "you have a sad aura." Perhaps it's true.

Why?

Thoughts can't seem to be flowing out of my brain. I hit the keys on the keyboard @ like 20wpm.

Relationship - A noun I cannot live without now.
Yet why am I treating it like a wind that comes and go.

Just so dissatisfied with myself.

Though I really want to be better, occasionally I say to myself,"be yourself."
Not that being myself does not have the element of wanting to improve. It's just that being myself, I wouldn't push myself so hard.

I'm at the crossroad. I hope I made the right decision.

Love,
Pam
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27hcram said…
Hey dear, how are you? You don't sounds fine lei...is everything ok there? :)

Love,
Jiabao
Wednesday, June 6, 2007 at 3:27:00 AM GMT+8
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