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eventually, a lady with a sweet-sounding voice dialed my number. i picked up with an expectant and presumptuous tone. the caller informed where she was calling from as i blurted something else. after coming to my realization that she was someone unfamiliar, i listened. it was about a job opportunity. i was/am hopeful. sounded like something i want and hoped for. God is good! interview first...

went for combined CF orientation programme. realized that i hardly recognized more than 5 souls initially. was feeling out of place. it got better later when i saw angeline especially! chin sing!!! thought i was on lonely planet for a while. somehow i felt that i lost most of my socializing skills though i'm not the noisy one in a group. i just don't know which category of questions to be starting with strangers of the younger age group. what i used to be am not what i'm now. people seemed to be asking me questions and it seemed like an interview. but i felt good really. cf has truly grown. give thanks to God. a brother shared a testimony in mandarin. he could articulate what he wanted to express clearly. just very impressed with his conviction and usage of words for a guy his age. there were songs. songs i never heard of. does that tell you something?

saturday was a day of meeting old friends. first with my best friend, xue ying. subsequently with my secondary school friends. i'm certainly delighted that they're faithful in attending the gathering. had our dinner and chatted in a comfortable flow i would say. somehow i felt that i didn't embrace my secondary school days. i should have been more open to sharing. somehow, i have this urge to revive the could have been better friendships between us.

life seems to be playing the past at this present moment. maybe i keep looking back to the past. i don't know what the future has in store for me.

i keep thinking of athena. seriously missing her. no idea where on earth is she. frankly, she's the most interesting and weirdest person i ever got to befriend. i'll never want to forget her. she's so hard to know. it took plenty of effort and when she finally allowed me to enter her life somehow i felt thrown out of that whimisical circle again.. alamak! just really hope to find her again. honestly, if i ever get to contact her.. i'll not want to let her go... she's the fey. i know i'm dreaming about her. just so hope that you'll read my blog. well if you happen to browse upon, i just look through your friendster profile.. i think you're not accessing it.. it just gave me a dose of you.. i just ruminate upon the fact that you're capable of accomplishing great things.. oh haha.. Godspeed.

well oh well, just guess i'm so not over the past and thus the title of my blog. alright bye bye. =D

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