It's suffice! I need to get out... Right now!

"Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour your heart out before Him; God is a refuge for us." Psalm 62:8

It's times like this when I get so vulnerable, somewhat pressured and in need of the Almighty to bring me through tough times I have to face inevitable circumstances as this. I feel really helpless. Like I am incapable of everything and anything. I guess umpteen consultations from my dear could not put away nor suffice my worrisome heart as to my current distressing state of not finding my tailor made job.

Tomorrow's the day. I have 1 shot. I thank God for the golden opportunity for a chance to do something seemingly desirable. I know I should brace myself but God knows how low self-esteem I possess. God is my only strength. Though I long to do something with languages, I knew well I do not have the flair like I knew millions would possess. I just really pray that if God puts me there for a purpose, I'll do my best and would be an eager learner.

I've enough of idling at home. Though reading is pleasurable. I need to be contributing financially and socially.

Let's hope by next week, there won't be anymore of boring blog entries. Instead some really thought provoking insights on my more interactive life. Life is yawn inducing when there is nothing to retort. Somber really. Take me in cause I really wanna get out there.

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