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it could make me cry... easily

use your imagination to picture the setting and anecdote i'm about to inform you about:

friendly uncle in his 50s: hello! helLO!! HELLO!!!

lady in her 20s: (turns her head reluctantly @ the source of the yelling...) Uncle! (and walks towards the familiar face)

uncle: hui jia ah? {heading home}

lady: mai fan... chi fan ah? {buying dinner... eating now?}

uncle: zuo xia lai la... {sit here...}

lady: bu yao la... wo yao mai fan... {it's alright... i need to buy dinner}

after some persuasion, the lady agreed.. and sat down beside @ a table of regular kopitiam uncles.

she was heavy in her heart. "hope you don't feel offended. it's good for you to decide to quit. xxx has been @#$% towards you. when you intended to resign earlier on then i decided to tell you i'm leaving too. 'yyy' as well. xxx found the way you worked slow. i told boss as you have said that of your responsibility was narrow, that's why you didn't hurry."

downcast. the incident told by one of my fave colleagues just haunted me like it was possessing the whole of my being that i couldn't help but start crying almost non-stop k. f***

i felt that my pride was being swallowed by biggy crocodile.

i just felt so affected. i don't know why.

my marki and my other fave colleague called at this moment while the uncle was lecturing me by saying i got to tolerate and grow and forget about work after work...

so glad my love called when i REALLY needed him.
so happy that a person who thought i was "mistreated" called in.

i felt blessed yet somehow depressed.

i gotta enhance my IT skills. i sucked.

xxx did make sense.
but the attitude she has given me was hell.
i do not hate but dislike her.
i didn't take it to heart.
but probably because i knew the whole truth that makes me upset.
good luck old me.
learn more and grow.
if you cry like this. you're too soft for everything.
grow up pam. even if it hurts your pride. real hard.

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