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~fcukstrated~

felt the stinging sensation on my nose like a mosquito had left it's venom on. eventually, gently, i removed my teeny weeny metallic friend away from the hill side it's been living on. i feel good. especially the fact that it won't get caught on my clothes when i am undressing. i guess this ritual signifies a chapter in my life. somehow.

haven't been updating for quite a while.

a lot has been happening.

just let me tell the tale in a nutshell.

i chose a milo over hot chocolate.

in the end, i still want my hot chocolate.

i've been a fool.

not gonna be one again. gotta learn to grow up. and be a little more wiser.

in conclusion, i know a sweet guy out there who loves me for me.
i'm veryunloveable. serious.

been catching up with people i want to stay in touch with. particularly, friends from other ethnic groups. i miss them.

went to 1 concert and 1 play this month.

it's awesome. =D

got another confession to make.

i'm getting moremoody thesedays. thus fcukstrated.
i think i might know why but am unsure. anyways,

i know (You) & you will alwaysloveme for who iam.
and i (long) & wantto belongtoyou.

i've got people i cherish growingolder this month.
love them.

it just made me think of a friend a little more as the each day passes by.

where would you be 3 years from now?

are you still a friend? or merely a stranger?

met up with danny lately. he is just as who he was.. in my perception.

as for now. i can't accurately comprehend my rojak emotions.

all i can say is...

thanks for enduring and stayingbymy side.
i feel loved.

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