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*chain cycle*

went for a pretty long walk instantly upon reaching home from work.
thought i strolled/jogged for at least 45 - 60 mins in the park and in the dark.
i just kept walking, can't seem to get enough of it.
like it's the only thing left to do.
a lot of scenes from the past repeatedly played in my head.
only a particular song from my mp3 was selected for almost the whole mono cycle.
it was who knew by pink.
it was insatiable.
i thought about how the lyrics relate to me.
about the past.
made me melancholy.
i just kept on dwelling and blamed myself for feeling that way after such a long period.
must be the song.
triggered me to think of the heartache i once experienced. dammit.
i thought about what someone has done and said recently. and f**k i just can't get it off my mind.
i'm infatuated by the thought.
please get away from my mind.
i seriously have no idea how to deal with it.
i'm afraid i'll just explode.
i still think...
must be the damn song.

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