*gimme a break*

i requested for an off day on monday and got a surprising reply from my boss...
she said i probably needed a longer break...
i was not performing and seemed too distracted...
she was understanding...
that was what i really needed...
i'm now freed...
for the whole month...

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don't ask me why...
it looks like i'm idling around...
doing nothing constructive...
but i think i'll make use of this time to carefully re-think about what i want to do for the next half of the year...
i'm turning 21...
but i'm behaving like an 11...
1st half of this year just gone by without me doing anything beneficial to anyone and myself, i suppose...
not the kind of life i want to lead...

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going to do something crazy soon...
sometimes i think i'm really like a roller coaster...
i like to be unpredictable...
the ride may be hair-raising...
you don't know where i would head...

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i want to do something really delirious...
i don't know what...
on the contrary, i can think of something relaxing...
but however, unachieveable at this point...
i always imagine being at great barrier reef with my lover or friends would make me really happy...
spectacular view i hope...
just feeling nature...

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back to reality...
my gut feeling tells me you're there...
with what you've done...
i'm too tired to speculate...
if you are...
don't refrain from doing anything...
nobody should judge...
maybe now the theme song is hardly 'love conquers all'...
but if you think so...
why don't you conquer that war of yours...
alright, i think and probably whine too much...
i should really get some rest...