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*hold my hand*

<-- i'll like to walk on this street with: a) my mum or dad
b) my hero
c) my future kid(s)

a) my mum or dad: a feeling i want to revive.

b) my hero: i'm a happy woman!

c) my future kid(s): do you feel loved my son/daughter?

why am i typing all these...

i so want you back in my life...

partially because i sensed how much you did love me...

i'm willing to be a fool for you...

yet a piece of me think not...

~

as usual i was in a daze...

for a very long time, i think i've been wearing this grey tinted sunglasses...

my boss msn me today...

asked me was i in or out of love...

i replied, "i don't know."...

then she went on telling me brg was not important...

she would help me earn $$...

and guys would come queuing for me...

what's on my mind...

love's not about cash, assets, possessions...

i can't buy love...

love gives me energy and motivation to strive...

i feel weak when my love decides to go into his mysterious cave...

i'm not a cave woman...

he doesn't wants me in the cave at this moment...

i'm just dangling on a thin line of string...

i don't want to fall...

i'm holding on to this kite...

~

met up with my best friend...

everytime i catch up with her...

again i'm reminded how much i love her...

though we are so different...

i want my decisions to be in her approval...

she was saying about her mum...

and i was asking if her mum liked me...

i always have this impression...

mummies don't fancy me...

wells, her mummy's alright with me...

glad...

~

jerk no. one ruined my day...

he really did...

why must he stir trouble out of nothing...

don't ask me...

i wish you all the best...

even if you probably despice me...

i don't understand and can't understand you...

i guess it's communication style...

aye...

i really hope i don't have to deal with it again...

i don't know how to...

please, i beg...

leave me alone...

one day we might see each other somewhere, somehow...

listening to: Bob Marley - No Woman No Cry

Comments

Leonard said…
Trust in the Lord and pray about it.. i am sure he will deliver you.
Just like this song that says:
I keep looking for this song to give you but cannot find. Sian i will try to..

You Are So Faithful

Like the sun that rises everyday,

You are so faithful. Lord, You are faithful.

Like the rain that You send,

And every breath that I breathe,

You are so faithful, Lord


Like the rose that comes alive every spring,

You are so faithful. Lord, You are faithful.

Like the life that You give, to every beat of my heart,

You are so faithful, Lord.


I see the cross and the price You had to pay,

I see the blood that washed my sins away.

In the midst of the storm through the wind and the waves,

You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful,

When the stars refuse to shine and time is no more,

You'll still be faithful,

You'll still be faithful, Lord.

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