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*exhausted entirely*

i'm so tired lately...
i can't seem to concentrate on anything...
my boss said, "you disappoint me."... (then added, "don't think so much.")
i feel like a zombie sauntering...
i don't feel like a real human...
everything seems vague and blur...

~

something's very wrong with me...
my family, friends and dog seem the way they used to be...
unchanged...
it's bizarre...
i'm me yet un-me..
i don't know me anymore...

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i need God to help shake me to life...
i feel dead...
and i hope my life is shorter...
it just seemed to lack meaning...
not exactly though...
since God is the reason why i'm here...
to live for Him...
yet me...
is just so not me...
i feel like i need...
something/someone to fill the hole in my heart...
i don't know...
i'm just so not on planet earth...

~

been catching up with good old pals...
i love you girls lots...
yea, girls...
i'm a girls' girl...
as for guy friends...
i want to specially thank mr. d...
you may not know who you are...
but thinking of you...
makes me want to return to my old original self...
laughs...
you just make me want to regain what i think i should be like...
alright, what am i talking about...
basically, bottom line: thank God for a good friend like you...

listening to: Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
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Leonard said…
Dun worry sad backs is like that one..
As for your boss say you.. dun take it to heart, you have done your best.
Dun worry k...u will step out of the darkness soon. Anything can just reach me. : )

From DRANOEL ( Read from the reverse side)
Thursday, June 29, 2006 at 11:28:00 PM GMT+8
teamilk said…
yo... hope dat u r alrite as u seem more disturbed nowsaday... juz like me... *sob*... juz wanna let u noe u r not de onli sad person in tis world... haha..lotz of ting wanna say to u but onli u can bring a smile to ur own face... so cheerz up gal...
Friday, June 30, 2006 at 6:29:00 AM GMT+8
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