Lately I have been feeling a little *stressed (assuming it's good stress). I feel that I have not accomplished much before I hit the next stage of life (perhaps some of you have been there). In another x days, I will be Mrs Nathaniel Koh. When I reflect on my life, I often wonder, am I prepared for the married life -- to be the wife of noble character mentioned in Proverbs 31, to be a good mother and a virtuous daughter to my parents and mother-in-law. At the same time, I do not want to drift away from my good friends who matter a lot to me.
There are various areas that I know that I can improve on in my current lifestyle but I feel that I am not doing enough to sustain the good habits. Just to quote an example, I want to be early for work but I find myself rushing through my morning walk to get to work on time and I feel sticky upon arrival. I have made a mental note to myself to wake up earlier and leave home earlier but I have not been successful for a sustainable period. Knowing that I am a heavy-sleeper, I foresee that I will struggle when I have to consistently wake up early to ensure that my husband and children's welfare are being taken care of.
I spoke to a friend who is a young parent and it is indeed difficult for her to spend quality time with friends. More and more of her personal time as a single has been given to her family. I am willing to sacrifice the time and it is great to have that conversation with her because it gives me awareness. What I have to do is to manage time carefully and put the plans into action.
I believe that God will guide me through to shape me into the kind of person He wants me to be. I am not sure why I am feeling the way I am now but my belief is that when I attempt to do something that is challenging, it will help me grow tremendously.
Regards,
Pam
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