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*insomnia*

listening to Bob Marley's "No Women No Cry"
this song never fails to make me feel better..
no men no cry by pam though

~

the past few days were pretty neutral...
my mom spoke to me that day...
my life should be taking a turn soon, i hope...
sometimes i felt like i'm forced to face adulthood...
my mom gave me a necklace...
wearing it reminded me - you're an adult now...
i'll treasure it...
i love my parents...
just not too sure how to express it...

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i realized my general knowledge is really poor...
i got to read more...
i feel dumb...
i can't recall facts from my geography textbooks...
darn...

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met up with someone i don't know but definitely need to...
felt like a blind date...
without flowers as the indicator though...
i don't know why and don't bother to ask...
the moment we sat down...
we chatted probably non-stop for 3 straight hours...
all i did was blabber about things that matter and many which did not...
it was so comfortable...
felt like an old friend...
an old pair of jeans i chose to wear...
and felt yes, a long lost feeling...

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was on the way home from bukit timah...
saw a lady on a scooter...
cool...
maybe i should do that in the coming year...
but i guess pop and mom would strongly be against it...
so at the back of my head, "forget it."

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insomnia for days already...
tell me why...
i don't even know what to do...
my mind is thinking yes but still...
i'm exhausted...
so why can't i sleep...
if there's a fairy tale godmother...
i only have a very simple wish...
just let me sleep...
better luck for me tonight...
i wish and i hope...




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