Pam's Blog (Life, Marriage & Parenting)

Dear Blog, there's a hole in my heart, which can't seem to be filled. i demanded for an anwer; "why?" time after time, i know the answer yet do not know how to act. it was uncanny of me to react the way i did. however, it was the primal reaction i would have. sigh, i can't leave you because truly, i can't find someone else like you. it's a pity if i leave, you are so altruistic while what am i? i can't help but have the demented sydrome. why can't i just be contented? sigh, i don't know what's good for me. ~ Dear Blog, Sometimes I really wish I can be happier. Have a positive attitude but somehow as Danny once remarked, "you have a sad aura." Perhaps it's true. Why? Thoughts can't seem to be flowing out of my brain. I hit the keys on the keyboard @ like 20wpm. Relationship - A noun I cannot live without now. Yet why am I treating it like a wind that comes and go. Just so dissatisfied with myself. Though I really want to be...

Dear Blog, I've been working @ the education centre for a month now. From a part-time translator (chinese to english) to full-time cum administrator next week. Sometimes the thought of the job scope of an admin/receptionist makes me groan. Well I assume that it will be boring... My perception. Good thing I can still translate BUT I'm getting a lil tired. I'm a 3-minute person. Things just can't seem to interest me forever. Infidelity you think? The pleasant aspects of this job are which I kinda like some of my colleagues, the boss and of course the nature of my original existence to the company. I don't get upset when I leave later... (I doubt there's overtime pay so to speak) Basically, I feel that my job is helping me to improve as a person somehow. Personally, I regard myself as a language individual... Though I would really love to be associated with arts being incline to architecture and playing of musical instruments like violin and drums as well as in the...

Dear Blog, I just changed the outfit for aubrey. *happy* Love, Pam

Dear Blog, I'm so very lethargic. I have zero amount of energy. Just for some update... The week before the last, I had 3 days of diarrhoea. After I ate 'bao ji wan', i stopped passing watery stools. Unfortunately, almost immediately, I had a slight fever and tension headache. When I was going to recover, I was infected with another sort of virus or was it supposed to be how a real stomach flu is. I vomited everything I consumed. Terrrible to the max. Whatever... Extremely fatigued. My marki was so there for me. Especially when I'm all so ugly when I'm sick. Oh and I met Athena! Watched Spidey 3. No big hoo haa really... It was ok to me. It's more important that I see her. =] A true blessing! ;) Update soon! Tata! Love, Pam

met the boss i really admire. my part-time boss. she suggested full-time but i found my other job. i've been busy translating. even today.. labour day. but i like and enjoy my job really. tomorrow's officially the 1st day of my full-time job. wish me all the best. :) met danny together with yu han. i felt so comfortable, the real me when i'm with them. undoubtfully. i feel kinda energized. maybe translating really is my dream job. well, i need to begin reading chinese newspaper though. i must learn more and be really enthusiastic to improve. ;) things are really looking good. must thank God! Praise Him! alrighty, goodnight all! Tata!~

I've got for myself a seemingly decent part time job!!! Yeah! =D Right now I'm awaiting for the other full time job to be granted within this week... Spent my day with dear as it has been his off day. We were both totally fatigued. Finally grabbed the opportunity to talk to him a little more about God at the right place and time. So glad he was interested. Good day! Tomorrow's gonna be better since I'm working... Hehee... ;) Generally life seems to revolve only around: * Dear * Books / Novels / Magazines not forgetting The Straits Times * Trying to be attending cell group + church services * Listening to music * Coffee!!! * Surfing the net.. BORING... * Cheap thrill of hiting the arcade with dear for those shooting games * DVDs & VCDs ** and the other activities that are necessary like: - wash up - eat - bathe - sleep Actually God's a necessity. I gotta draw near to Him cause I know that He loves me. That's all for now... I have a very uninteresting life. Bu...

Read... Finished off The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery Three quarter of it was read while I was drinking latte @ Starbucks waiting for dear... A friendly waiter asked how was my day and exclaimed, "Oh, you're reading the little prince... It seemed more for adults than children." I replied, "Oh yah... That seems true." Somehow his appearance transformed the cafe into a friendlier environment for me. It's the type of place I like to hang around. Just lay my buxomy body on the comfy couch, get my fave beverage and get transported to another world where I am the invisible character @ the setting. The remaining pages were scanned by on my bus ride home. I was so stirred by the story that I wanted to tear. Tilting my head backward for a few seconds helped me to fight off the involuntary fluids born from my eyes. It was one of those very rare moments when a book makes me feel so much for its characters. I just wonder how beautiful it would be to rewind a...