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Thoughts On God's Word - Love Your Enemies
2 May 2014


Dear Blog,


A lot of things has been happening in my life lately, more so spiritually and emotionally.  I am not sure if I have changed but one thing is for sure -- I love Jesus more and more.  The Lord's sovereign hand has been upon me and my loved ones.  God is so good that I am so afraid that one day if I am not careful, I will forget all the good things He has done for me.  Psalm 103:2 (NLT) says, "Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things He does for me."  I am not sure if it has to do with the use of technology but I find myself quite lazy when penning down my thoughts in my physical diary.  I remember a brother sharing about writing down what the Lord has done for him, lest he forgets the goodness of the Lord.  If my memory does not fail me, he said that his mother had Alzheimer's disease and he was afraid that if one day he has this disease, he may not remember God's word.  This sharing motivated me to write about some good things that the Lord has done for me.



Having not been spiritually stable for about a decade, I am now regaining a little more stability.  Thanks be to God for His grace and mercy.  Currently I am attending church regularly and want to continue to grow in His love and word.  The one thing I always find it very hard to do as a Christian is to love my enemies.  In Matthew 5:44 (NLT) Jesus said, "But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you!"  As a mortal, I need the strength and wisdom from God to not hold on to grudges but to pray for people who are my so called "enemies".  Lately, a lot of matters have been prompting me to think about these two qualities -- mercy and justice, which one do I value more?  Without putting much thought to it, my answer would be justice.  Do I think I am righteous?  Far from it, I am a sinner.  I may not have committed crimes such as, arson, murder etc but that does not make me a better person than any other person.  I have read about this case in the news where a Japanese lady was tortured and then gang raped and eventually died.  The offenders got away easy.  I remember it was not a life sentence for all and at this moment while typing this, I still feel angry for the victim and her family.  You see if I were a close one of this lady, I would have wish for the death of the rapists and his accomplices.  But is this what God wants me to feel and do?  Yes, it is difficult to forgive but it's only through forgiveness that we can set others and ourselves free.  Holding on to grudges and vengeance does not make us any better.  Now on to mercy, I remember watching a video long ago about this man who committed arson (can't confirm if this is correct) and a counsellor (not sure if this is correct again) visited him in prison and later he found out that this so called counsellor was the relative of the dead victim(s).  The counsellor forgave the man and once he received forgiveness, he began to understand the indescribable love of God and when he was sent for death execution, he was not a tinge afraid because he knows who God is and He is the One who loves and forgives all our sins. I was extremely touched when I watched it.  At this point, I want to draw congruence to the parable of the prodigal son in Luke 15:11-32.  I think it's a really great feeling to be forgiven and forgiveness only comes from the Lord alone.  With human effort, it is very difficult or even impossible to do.



With my current experiences in life, I am not sure if I have it within me to be a forgiving person.  I know I am far from being righteous and at the same time, I do not want to disobey God.  At times when I see people doing evil things, I wonder should I try to do something about it or should I leave it entirely to God.  Like I said to a brother, I believe fully in God's sovereignty and never will I try to be God.  Sometimes, I wonder if God gives me a burden in my heart, should I act on it.  The Holy Spirit really has to guide me in discerning the things of the Lord because I really do not want to displease God.



I think there's a lot of dangers in this life, when I see supposedly faithful Christians falling, I feel really sad.  This leads me to think about where I would be when I am old.  Will I be faithful or will I lose faith?  "Start children off on the way they should go, and even when they are old they will not turn from it." Proverbs 22:6 (NIV)



Acts 20:24 (NLT) But my life is worth nothing to me unless I use it for finishing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus -- the work of telling others the Good News about the wonderful grace of God.  Yes,   to do the work of the Lord is very important.  For every action, every word and every thought that I have, if I do not glorify God, it is nothing.



Love,

Pam


Testimony
19 February 2014
The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.
This morning while I was opening the doors and windows to the Activity Area at my workplace, Christian Outreach to the Handicapped, the Holy Spirit prompted me to I prayed for my mother. While I was praying I saw one of my mother’s best friends walking past the corridor outside and I rushed out of the Activity Area to request her to pray for my mother and catch up with her to show some concern.  She told me that my mother did call her to ask to meet up but she would be busy till end of March.  I told her what has been happening: there has been some conflict going on in my family and when I called my mother on Monday, she seemed to be angry and wanted to retaliate.  I spoke to a colleague yesterday and he told me personally, he would not do what I have just spoke about.  He said men think of their own ways of solving problems but God is the one in control.  He added I should pray and God will provide a solution.  Indeed, when you seek Him with all your heart, He listens to our prayer.  In this instance, He sent a sister to help us.
I reflected on the bible passage that another colleague shared during devotion sharing on 17 February and felt that it was very apt.  It was from the book of Matthew 5:38-48.  He shared about Peace. 

Eye for Eye

38 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.’ 39 But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. 40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well. 41 If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. 42 Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.
Love for Enemies
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbour and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47 And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
I wanted to share with my mother the bible verses but I am afraid she may have the wrong perception of my intention.  However, God is so good!  He provided help for me.  The meeting of my mother’s best friend was not coincidental. 
Hebrews 13:6
So we say with confidence,
“The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.
    What can mere mortals do to me?”[
God listens to my prayers and sent help for me to deal with the situation.  Let us all remember to give thanks no matter what circumstances we are in.
1 Thessalonians 5:18
give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

Testimony
20 February 2014


You're the answer for the world
The healer of our hearts
Oh, what a wonder You are.
You're my all-sufficiency
The author of forgiveness
Oh, what a wonder,
A wonder-working God.
This morning I called my mother to find out how she was doing.  She seemed to be less angry and a little more calm.  She still seemed to be really hurt but when I shared with her about the bible passage Matthew 5:38-48, she seemed eager to take note.  While I was walking back from the MPH to the office, I saw my mother’s best friend again.  This time she told me that she prayed to the Lord for us to meet.  I am really glad we met and I told her I called up my mother to check on her.  She told me that my mother requested for a prayer and she was crying while listening to the prayer over the phone.  I am sure Jesus is at work and I am so glad. My heart is filled with gratitude that I am not even sure how to thank God enough for His love and grace.  Her best friend told me that she could sense that my mother has the longing to return to the Lord.  She asked if my mother would like to go to church with her and my mother seemed to be open.  Thank you Jesus!  You are a listening God and You are real.  You have touched my life in so many ways and I am eternally grateful.

P.S. Just sharing God's Work in my life.  Be blessed, press on and never give up on God.

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